Zyphreon

About me:
There's a lot I could say about myself, however I feel an Important clarification to make right at the beginning is that, I'm just a man who's trying to do the right thing always, and there has been many times in my life where things went wrong because of me and I've always ended up alone in the end - though each time I've learnt something about myself and instead of hating the world or letting myself become someone I'm not, I always made sure to try and stay as myself as I possibly could, forgiveness seems so hard and confusing but please forgive those that have truly done you wrong, its not worth holding that in you as I once did. I have had so many hobbies growing up as I didn't have many friends, so I tried to self teach myself everything I know, this lead me to having stuck my toes and mind into a lot of different subjects and skills. This I feel allows me to relate to more people and also gives me the unique ability to never really run out of things to talk about in conversations. It also makes talking to new people very easy for me, however its trying to continue being friends with people is what I find hard in relationships, long term idk what to do really ;-;

About me:

There's a lot I could say about myself, however I feel an Important clarification to make right at the beginning is that, I'm just a man who's trying to do the right thing always, and there has been many times in my life where things went wrong because of me and I've always ended up alone in the end - though each time I've learnt something about myself and instead of hating the world or letting myself become someone I'm not, I always made sure to try and stay as myself as I possibly could, forgiveness seems so hard and confusing but please forgive those that have truly done you wrong, its not worth holding that in you as I once did. I have had so many hobbies growing up as I didn't have many friends, so I tried to self teach myself everything I know, this lead me to having stuck my toes and mind into a lot of different subjects and skills. This I feel allows me to relate to more people and also gives me the unique ability to never really run out of things to talk about in conversations. It also makes talking to new people very easy for me, however its trying to continue being friends with people is what I find hard in relationships, long term idk what to do really ;-;

Being on the spectrum:
I've been fairly alone most of my life and Its lead me to develop a unique mindset from most people I meet, I'm not outright afraid of people, but more-so afraid of the bad seeds humanity can sometimes bring. I'm not really a fan of people who claim they are perfect and despite that I'd still get annoyed at people not being fair or right to others, sugar coating things honestly really pisses me off. But I'm Autistic (Asperger's Syndrome) and I found out very late in life meaning I was able to sort of manage myself and emotions but getting older has made more adult life kinda difficult to understand as I feel I'm a very free spirit, I want to greet the world as myself, I hate masking, which was a technique I constantly did when I was younger and when I worked retail jobs. So my advice let the mask down, be more you, don't let this world take what you owed at birth.

Being on the spectrum:

I've been fairly alone most of my life and Its lead me to develop a unique mindset from most people I meet, I'm not outright afraid of people, but more-so afraid of the bad seeds humanity can sometimes bring. I'm not really a fan of people who claim they are perfect and despite that I'd still get annoyed at people not being fair or right to others, sugar coating things honestly really pisses me off. But I'm Autistic (Asperger's Syndrome) and I found out very late in life meaning I was able to sort of manage myself and emotions but getting older has made more adult life kinda difficult to understand as I feel I'm a very free spirit, I want to greet the world as myself, I hate masking, which was a technique I constantly did when I was younger and when I worked retail jobs. So my advice let the mask down, be more you, don't let this world take what you owed at birth.

First Art Memory:
I've always had a knack for being interesting in creative things, my first interactions I remember involving art properly was when I was in school as a boy and I decided to draw little Pokemon starters on paper and try sell them to other classmates for fake money I drew for them haha

Hows your metal health:
As of writing and of you reading this, my mental health is currently the best its every been within my life time. I used to self harm eventually that lead to the worst day of my life. I am better now by about 500% than I once was, during that time I went to therapy around 3 times combined with antidepressants and that helped massively, since then life's been much kinder to me and this lead me to no longer be on antidepressants. Its important to keep going, the road is long but you are capable, stay the course, you will make it.

Hows your metal health:

As of writing and of you reading this, my mental health is currently the best its every been within my life time. I used to self harm eventually that lead to the worst day of my life. I am better now by about 500% than I once was, during that time I went to therapy around 3 times combined with antidepressants and that helped massively, since then life's been much kinder to me and this lead me to no longer be on antidepressants. Its important to keep going, the road is long but you are capable, stay the course, you will make it.

Likes:
Drawing, Music, Writing, Gaming, Reading, Learning New Things, Monster Energy, Raccoons, Cartoons, Movies, Nature, Cherry Flavoured Foods, Apple Schnapps, Rating Things.

Favourite Shows & Movies:
Adventure Time, Regular show, 1983 Heman & The Masters Of The Universe, The Land Before Time, Over The Garden Wall, Invincible, Avatar The Last Airbender, Futurama, Breaking Bad, The Thing, Alien

Things You Probably Didn’t Need to Know:
I cry very often when listening to things that are deeply beautiful and I love the feeling of deep beauty causing me to cry, weather it be from an emotional moment in my life or simply something so tragic or so beautiful I can't help but love that I can even feel at all, even writing this is making me tear up a little.
I knew what furry porn was before I knew what a furry was ugh.
It took a very long time to admit I was a furry - I took 15 years to accept I was, I was afraid to be one for a very long time. (not anymore)
I've dated 17 people in my life and only ever felt loved by one, hopefully this changes in the future.
I like to uhh, train people...you know like a sort of coach, in a very particular way.
I wrote all of this while listening to "Epic the Musical"

wish world

WishWorld's Alpha v0.3
The game during this time period wasn't even a game yet, it took a few more years of full development to achieve an actual feeling game, as during WishWorld development I was learning as I was making, and upon creating and finishing the first level thats when I thought wait a minute, I could make a game.

WishWorld's Beta v2.0
During the beta, I gave out copies to my friends to test and try out the game to receive feedback, I did and took that feedback to improve the game as I was creating it, while still learning the in's and outs of unreal engines node based coding, during this time period the game had been worked on for about 3 years on and off, but it was close to being finished and I eventually did finish an early version of the game I claimed was finished, but oh boy that would change.

WishWorld's Beta v2.0

During the beta, I gave out copies to my friends to test and try out the game to receive feedback, I did and took that feedback to improve the game as I was creating it, while still learning the in's and outs of unreal engines node based coding, during this time period the game had been worked on for about 3 years on and off, but it was close to being finished and I eventually did finish an early version of the game I claimed was finished, but oh boy that would change.

WishWorld's Release v3.0
When I worked in a comic book store, I thought for many hours while working what I was really doing with my life, at this point I had finished the game in my mind and felt aimless...until and old friend from my collage days arrived in to talk to me, we had a nice conversation but he came back a few days later onto to give me a cup from Hytale studios which is where he worked at the time, I was so blown away by this and so jealous that he was working for a large company and I still was on my own behind a retail till, It sparked something in my, countless days I couldn't do anything in work but think on upgrading my "finished game" Eventually I made the foolish choice to quit my job to work on my game for the next 6 months and I made with world exactly how I finally wanted it.

WishWorld's Release v3.0

When I worked in a comic book store, I thought for many hours while working what I was really doing with my life, at this point I had finished the game in my mind and felt aimless...until and old friend from my collage days arrived in to talk to me, we had a nice conversation but he came back a few days later onto to give me a cup from Hytale studios which is where he worked at the time, I was so blown away by this and so jealous that he was working for a large company and I still was on my own behind a retail till, It sparked something in my, countless days I couldn't do anything in work but think on upgrading my "finished game" Eventually I made the foolish choice to quit my job to work on my game for the next 6 months and I made with world exactly how I finally wanted it.

WishWorld & Beyond
In total I worked on WishWorld for 6 years and after its release a few people bought it, I never advertised it and never truly praised it as it was my first game, but I feel most people make tiny games at first, but I didn't my game takes a few hours to complete and it can be fairly hard as a plat-former, oh my god don't get me started on the final level in the game, that level was a B*tch to test if it was possible. But there was a few bug fix updates and for now, WishWorld Truly is complete. I'm proud of what I've made and even if nobody plays it or its forgotten about by the internet and world, I believe it was very worth my time in making and I love game design, I have so many ideas for more games but because I don't earn money and I'm older than I was when I started WishWorld, I spend a lot less time making games sadly, but I'm aiming on smaller projects using Godot now, which means I need to learn to code from scratch again (because unreal node based to Gd-script is wild). But overall thank you for taking the time to read all this and if your interested in checking WishWorld please do and leave me a review.

WishWorld & Beyond

In total I worked on WishWorld for 6 years and after its release a few people bought it, I never advertised it and never truly praised it as it was my first game, but I feel most people make tiny games at first, but I didn't my game takes a few hours to complete and it can be fairly hard as a plat-former, oh my god don't get me started on the final level in the game, that level was a B*tch to test if it was possible. But there was a few bug fix updates and for now, WishWorld Truly is complete. I'm proud of what I've made and even if nobody plays it or its forgotten about by the internet and world, I believe it was very worth my time in making and I love game design, I have so many ideas for more games but because I don't earn money and I'm older than I was when I started WishWorld, I spend a lot less time making games sadly, but I'm aiming on smaller projects using Godot now, which means I need to learn to code from scratch again (because unreal node based to Gd-script is wild). But overall thank you for taking the time to read all this and if your interested in checking WishWorld please do and leave me a review.